Thresholds Within

As we begin to awaken, we have a sense of, and a pull within to other realities.  We all have thresholds in the self that keep us safe from wondering beyond what we can be responsible for in the present. The wonderings I refer to are about other realities that exceed our current ability to relate to such complexity and awareness. Thresholds keep us grounded here, and also require that we integrate the self so we do not move too quickly.  

Integrating thresholds enables us to realize at a deeper level within how to move, how to be, and use what we already know.  A pure heart allows us to relate to our self and to this world in a way that is true.  

"Thresholds"   11 x 14 in.   watercolor & white acrylic on paper

"Without integrating what you can see, how can you possibly integrate realities that belong to you that you can't see?" - John De Ruiter 

The voices within us are a reflection of our different levels of self.  They have a complexity and tend to pull us about until we begin to relate to the voices as simplicity while in the midst of everything that comes at us in life.  We then begin to notice there is a difference between us and all these different levels of the self.  The thresholds in all these levels of the self make integration necessary.  It helps us to learn simplicity within complexity.  

What then arises is an awareness that you are much more than you thought.  You develop the ability to move beyond a simplistic approach.  Heart understanding is of greatest value here.  Your heart gives you a capacity to hold everything together with no limitation.  Heart understanding allows you to move within your awareness as living knowledge, direct knowledge.  This heart understanding prepares you for being more than just moving within the various levels of the self.  Heart understanding enables you to realize that you are more than just a self, that beyond the self there is what you are as a being.  It is a very very subtle touch of beingness within the self.

This awakening to what you are as a being beyond a self gives you the ability to know deeper complexity within from a vantage point of simplicity.  The complexity isn't about levels of self, but something more subtle.  It is about a beingness that moves through you, affecting all levels of the self.  It can affect all levels of the self because it precedes what the self is.  It is a container for the self.  As you recognize and realize this, you won't just be a self any longer.  You will have the ability to discern different levels of beingness, and not just moving in them but grounded in them as living knowledge.  You will be more than a self. As you become more than a self you will discern and integrate these new subtle levels of complexity of what you are. 

It is then that you will begin to resonate with and relate to other realities, which are not known solely as a self. You will not just resonate with living knowledge, you will be grounded in it, deeply rooted in it. It will have you incorporating the much more of what you are.  You will have new seeing within real heart understanding and that makes you ready for more, what you truly are as a being.

In what you are as a being, stay close to, resonate within to other realities and you will begin to realize these realities as what you are.  It is realness appearing as a result of awareness moving into knowing.  

"Awareness gives knowing certainty." -John De Ruiter

Please note:  If you are not clear in your self then your learning will be fairly basic.  The finer your awareness becomes, deviation from your clarity will not be tolerated in reality almost at all.  As you operate in such clear awareness and knowing, there is less tolerance for not getting it right.  At these levels the stakes are much higher.  You can get away with nothing. On these levels the smallest shift will bring great change in your self.  There is less and less room for deviating, even by mistake from your awareness being and moving as knowing.  Your foundation becomes alive, moving as living and real knowledge.  This will give you the ability to understand what you are as a being and how to move within, and through life as all that is profoundly real.

If you know someone who is being this, stay close to them.  

Pitfall:  Do not allow yourself to be enticed by anything, a way of being, or a want as that is moving into limitation.  Do not  attach to any particular feeling or experience as that will instantly remove you from being it. When you get caught by this, you are in an old pattern.  Stop everything and gently go back to giving everything you are to being it, because of what it is and not for any other reason. 

I've stepped into every pitfall there is of course, so I know the pain of it.  When that occurred I felt so empty, even desperate, because I knew better. Finally, I stopped thinking there was something for me to get from life. I just let go, and let go more, one thing at a time, and then I just let go completely. At first, it was a scary place to be; there was nothing to hold onto that used to be there. What I found is, and always will be, is what I know and a most wonderful I.  

Then, from what I know, I discovered the ability to be streams of being.  This means the ability to move without using the self.  Being able to move in levels within that are deeper than the self.  

As you become this, you will be living knowledge, which is generated from both within and without you.  The deeper you go into the self, as you are being a being, the rules change.  

Stay close to your heart, move close to all this by being heart-forward.  Lead with your heart.  The heart is pure and real.  

You will find the eternal continuity of all things, in form and non-form.  Once you know, you can never again say you do not know. Give it everything of you, let it become you. Turn into what it is.

"The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes."   -Marcel Proust

Parts of this post are based on notes from a conversation with John De Ruiter, my teacher. 

Peace and love...