Loving Balance Within, Part 2

A reminder:  do not believe what I say is true unless you know for yourself it is true.  Ask yourself, "Where am I looking from to know it is true, or not true?" 

When the self creates the perception of separation from God, Source, and believes it, what remains is the individual, which then has to become more important than anything else.  Oneness and deep grounding in truth evaporate to be replaced by a desperate need to survive, and self-interest, self-importance or even self-absorption.  Some people find it very difficult to find their way out of this, to let go, to stop strangling their life with their ego.

"Creative Power Within"  22 x 28 acrylic on black paper

Even if one small part of you is not included in the whole of you because of self-interest or picking and choosing then what you came here for is suffocated.  As more of your life is led by self-interest, and personal survival of the ego then you will not see what you came here for.  To realize what you came here for you can't make your life about what you want.  It can't be made into something that is not real and pretend differently.  If you know you are missing something within then you know what is actually real, but it will never be what you want. It will only be what it is.  

You also cannot use truth to try to make what is real within into something you want, nor can you use it to make something real that is not real.  This way of being has no balance to move anywhere within; it can only lead to more imbalance.  From this place whatever little bit you are actually able to see of truth you will not be able to use because it will be distorted and you will know that. Justifying your actions will seal the blindness.

Balance is found by first seeing where you have created imbalance within.  Do not gravitate toward or move away from any part.  Just notice gently what is there.  Shift into seeing the whole from your highest awareness then you will be able to hold the whole.  When you find you are moving toward or away from aspects of you, gently stop and be the whole of you. Exist for the very highest in you and you will be able to hold the whole.  Love being the whole of you, there is no effort in any of this.  If you begin to identify with a particular part of you, whether positive or negative, simply go back to loving being the whole of you.  Being the whole is easy because it is what you actually love.  If you experience effort or frustration then you are looking from a part of you to see what is true, simply let go and go back to being the whole.  If you justify the effort in anyway then you are blind again.

Remain on the highest and finest level.  While being that, see the ways in which you are not being the highest and finest levels within.  Be gentle with you, see everything you are being without protecting anything. You can only become, tun into what you most love, by being gentle and honest with you.

Watch where you try to get way with something, cut corners, within.  In gentleness within come back to being the whole of you.  If you are not gentle with your self then you can still see and know what is true within, but it will be on a coarse level.  You can't turn into what you first are, God, without gentleness within.

It is easy to be gentle within while in stillness.  Practice being gentle within through all parts of you as you move through your day.  This cannot be done unless you are balanced inside.  As you become more balanced, your seeing with be finer and the love of that fineness will show as a love of balance, all moving into form.

You will discover many loves within.  You will find a deep love of what is real, of moving forward, of being still, of being clean inside.  Love of balance enables everything to work well.  The more loves you have the deeper your joy.  The deepest joy and sense of freedom is that everything is one, not just as an intellectual thought, but as your everyday reality.

Your calling cannot manifest, nor does it matter, until you are whole.  Don't worry about trying to get it right, just be balanced within and you will be on the right track.  The power of the whole is the same as being at one.  Realize that in every part of you and be it on the highest level you know.  

"You can't know God without turning into God and there is no status in Godhood."  -John De Ruiter

"The cost of not being whole and balanced is that it costs the whole of the universe when you are not whole."  -John De  Ruiter

There is no actual veil between form and non-form, except what you have put there for your own comfort.  When you are completely trustworthy as a being and with your entire life, when you are entirely whole then the other side opens.  Beforehand, we get glimpses and we know there is more to this life than what we can presently see.  There is so much more than just this life.  

Be the other side, on this side.  Be non-form while in form.  This does not mean go to the other side for a nice visit.  It isn't about going back and forth, or in and out.  It is about being it always.   It is also not about letting it wash over you.  It is about letting it wash into you, and not like a flash flood that inundates and then is gone.  Let the other side wash into you like a deep clear pool, healing.  

What you love and what you know is true are not always the same thing.

Peace and love....